I’ve had panic attacks before but the one last night was a little scary.
I had dozed off while my boyfriend was in the bathroom. When he came back, I was softly awakened by the beep his phone made as he plugged it in. I tried to go back to sleep but my entire left side felt like it was slowly going numb. Gripped by fear, I started to panic. My boyfriend kept asking me what was going on but I could only describe the feeling as: “I don’t know” and “My left side is numb”.
For most of the night my boyfriend just held me, making me feel somewhat safe but there was this feeling that something was trying to take me out of my body. It felt like every time I tried to lie back and stretch out to open my airways, little hands were gripping me on my left side from inside my body. The feeling was so intense that I finally had to declare, “I’m not ready to leave. I don’t want to leave.”
Unphased by my statement, my boyfriend placed his hands on my chest and that’s when I felt his healing energy. It was almost as if warm water was rushing through the left side of my body very gently from the bottom up. I felt it rush through my left foot as it slowly made its way up my body to the crown of my head and everything just felt right again. I was still hesitant to fall asleep but according to him this morning, I was out like a light after I was finally able to settle down a little.
I don’t know what it was but it scared me deeply. Everything had been going fine all night until it felt like something was trying to take me out of my body. Whatever it was, I hope it doesn’t come back. I will say that I am extremely grateful for my boyfriend. He helped me so much last night. I don’t know what I’d do without him.